Adam is God?
2006-01-21 / 7:53 p.m.


YOUR EX-LOVER IS DEAD.

Ohh, the whale that swam around the Thames died =(. I was hoping to see it when I go to central tomorrow as well, owh. I thought the whole situation was rather cute; a whale mysteriously swimming around the Thames; people who saw and didn't know about must be like,
"Walking walking walking ... let me look at the river... oh, a whale. Walking walk... WHAT THE?!?!"
I did spend some time sitting in front of the television today, probably about half an hour all added up. Noticing how me and Sam came down to the living room watching BBC with his parents, I started thinking: it's so crazy to think people (including me) pay so much more attention to a stranded whale rather than something like the underclass in Britain; I mean, the BBC had set up a 24-hour live camera for it, lordy. Admittedly, a whale swimming around the Houses of Parliament is quite a big shock; Sam's father even went up to the Thames to see it yesterday. I wanted to see it. And poke it as well.

As mentioned, I am going to central tomorrow. Last time I went was around September I think. I remember it - it was so weird; I started feeling so physically sick I went home around 2PM I think. Tomorrow I will be okay. It will be nostalgic, but okay =D. I need more muji pens (Ben is rinsing them) and more long-sleeved tops. But the main purpose is to capture central (South Bank, Oxford Street, etc) in night life. Going out with my camera and tripod walking around London, it will be great. Hopefully it won't rain @_@!

"I would go around smiting my foes, in a very Old Testament style. From now on all entries to heaven will be based on entrants level of "jokes". Things would change, I assure you.

First commandment: Thou shalt not follow this commandment.
See what people do ... no wait,
First commandment: Adam is always right.
Second commandment: When in doubt, remind yourself of rule one.
Third commandment: No sex before marriage, unless you really want to - then its ok.
Fourth commandment: Lots of temples in my name please.
Fifth commandment: Thou shalt not disrespect anything; including my momma, because then she will smite you, and trust me you don't want that, her smitings make mine look like a gentle caress.

Here is the Lord's Prayer: HEEEEEE KNOWS IT
The end.
And its true, because if I am god then I do know it.

Worshipper: "I wonder whether I will have a happy life.."
Other guy: "Remember, HEEEEE KNOWS IT!"
Worshipper: "Oh yeah."

Dont tell anybody, but I am the devil too.
That way I can have so much more fun, tempting people away from myself, then smiting them for heresy; ahhhh, its a tough life."

- Adam, on MSN. Oh lordy.
It has been so long since any new progress is made on me and Sarah Tupman's relationship. Or rather, lack of relationship. Honestly I doubt anything positively new will happen. If there is one main thing I learnt from Alex's relationship, it is that it is better to let things go when requested. It's been approximately two weeks but man, it feels like such a long time that me and Sarah were friends. So long ago like ancient times. I can't help but to defriend her on LiveJournal as my friends-only entries will not be in her concern anymore ... not that I do much of those entries anyway, I'm not a wimp. It has been so long since she has updated her LiveJournal anyway; it is quite possible that she won't do until a long time. It isn't so wrong. And her diaryland blog ... I don't find myself visiting anymore. It's weird. It's all dissipating ... reminds me that I haven't visited Alex's LiveJournal for months either. It's not clearing out of my head, it's just becoming dormant, buried.
I guess, I haven't made the end to this friendship such a big deal to how I've done it with Alex, it doesn't really need to, but still, it really was a unique and close bond we had. Even though it ended bad, I have those memories at the back of my head.

I've noticed a recent trend in me of feeling warm lately - but everyone else around me is shivering and clashing their teeth against teeth. Except from Sam, he goes around in tshirts. Maybe it's just the pair of us? I'm warm whenever I'm with him. Warm because I'm unthreatened and truly enjoying myself, and how many times can I say that? I express reservation with nearly everything I do.
"Mmm, this is brilliant, but..."
This time there are no 'but's; this is unconditional joy, and who knows how long it will linger.
Instead of estimating a shelf life like I used to, I am concerning myself with what is right here, right now. If I get tied up with the idea of longevity, I run the risk of becoming blind all over again. I know this because I've fallen into that trap, with him as well, at the beginning. I've developed cataracts so thick that they managed to distort my image of myself and obstruct the path to something bigger and better-deserved.

Sometimes I just really want to shout out to you (plural) that,
I didn't break this friendship up because I like him, but you walked away from my friendship because I like him.

I've been busy living life hence why I've been so inactive on online blogs and my photoblog. I've been immersed in daily activities and the people that I care about rather than coming home to write about distant places and people as I'd like to see them rather than wonder how they actually are.
My quality of life has directly-correlated with the quality of my company and both have skyrocketed.

"Don't forget your earring."



♥ Joey



Previous entries:

My brother's 18th! - 2006-06-12

No more exams! - 2006-06-10

Two more exams left! - 2006-06-07

Game Maniac - 2006-06-04

Antipication of no exams. - 2006-06-02



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